Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Bigger Baby Bump

I have written about quite a few bumps.

First there was the bump of Catholic Charities placing on the "Waiting List for the Waiting List" in October last year. Then last month there was the summary of two other bumps: the adoption fraud in January and the birthmom deciding to parent in March. It's been a wee bit bumpy. No amount of shock absorbers could have prepared us for this bump, though:


Feel free to scream, shout, dance, etc. I personally fell to my knees and started sobbing, thanking God for allowing us to have another baby. I was so shocked that all creativity left my head. I called M and just yelled at him over the phone what you see highlighted above.

Here's some details: I'm 16 weeks pregnant, due October 2nd.
                               My ultrasound is scheduled for May 16th.
                               Yes, we will find out gender.
                               Yes, I will post the info here.
                               I am using a midwife for my prenatal care and for labor and delivery.
                               I'm planning on delivering at a birthcenter, but since N came so super duper fast,
                               we know there is a strong possibility that I'll have a home birth.

By the way, I highly recommend using a midwife who does home deliveries. Ours also does prenatal visits at our home. I haven't had to drive to an office. I haven't sat in a single waiting room. I haven't jumped up on an exam table. I get to listen to my sweet baby's heart beat from the comfort of my own couch. I am sure I will post more about the wonders of delivering with a midwife. The philosophy is so polar opposite medicines, so of course, the approach is going to be also.

If you haven't heard from me in a week, remind me to tell you about urine strips and protein drinks.

By the way, the reason I reference pregnancy as a bigger baby bump than our adoption complications isn't because a biological baby is a bigger deal than an adopted one. It's a bigger bump because I feel huge already. I had worked so hard to lose weight, and now it's flying right back on. Ugh. Oh well, I lost it once, I'll lose it again.

We do still think there is a baby for us to adopt. Now we're just super curious about the when, how, where, etc. Thanks for all your love and support!

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Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Why I'm Smiling This Moment. . .

The sound of my son bouncing, jiving, dancing his way through the living room as he "steps in time" with Mary Poppins.

I know this is more a tweet than a blog post. But I don't tweet. So this'll have to do!

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Friday, April 1, 2011

Another Bump

Our adoption journey continues to be very curious.

From November to January we were presented to four different birth moms. Each chose another family to parent her child.

In January we were presented to a birth mom who chose us to parent her baby girl. We later found out she's a fraud, thief, liar, all-around not-nice person.

In February we were presented to a birth mom who chose us to parent her baby boy. She gave birth to him last Friday. She decided not to place him in our home. She is going to parent him herself.

I don't think all these adoption losses are a coincidence. I'm just a bit curious on what is happening in the heavenlies.

In hind site it seems the loss of the little girl in January may in part have been to help capture a person who was devastating families. She is currently wearing a striped outfit in a small, uncozy room as she waits for her trial.

I have no idea why we lost the little boy last week. I will say that our hearts are filled with peace, though. I think our friends and family are having a harder time understanding why we keep experiencing so much loss.

Now that life has turned out so very differently than I anticipated, I'm looking forward with great expectation. I have no idea what to expect or even hope for.

Through it all, God is good to us. Jesus is both tender and strong enough to guard our hearts.

I'll keep you posted. . .

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